Intuition is a skill, not a gift. We all possess this deep inner wisdom and internal compass. Listening to it is a muscle we have to flex and practice working like any other muscle. Can you listen? What messages are waiting for you deep inside the Self? This truth belongs to you and only you, it is your dharma. Any Guru you follow, or wisdom you seek- it resonates with you because you already know it in your soul to be true. Listen. And then speak your highest truth. The world needs your guidance. Your voice is meant to be heard. In a culture where you have been conditioned to live in suppressed silence, be bold enough to break it. Speak.
To live this life completely unattached. What would it be like? If we could all loosen our grip and release the need to control people, situations and outcomes...Imagine how free we would be? The more we try to bend life to our will, the more it spirals out of our control. So why not embrace that we have no control of this incredibly beautiful yet terrifying journey we call life? To love unconditionally, is to love another being without attachment. It's to love their mistakes, their humanness, to acknowledge that they too, are trying to make their way through this existence. Nobody owns anybody. Sometimes the most loving thing we can do for ourselves and those around us is to let go. We are all our best teachers, helping our souls to grow. So learn to love deeply, and let it all go, and then love even deeper, and let it go. Keep following that feeling in your gut. The greatest love of all might just be right around the corner.
Our time spent with the shadow is just as important and necessary as our time spent in the light. Grief is sneaky and comes in waves out of nowhere and everywhere. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm grieving. Is it the obvious loss of my Dad and coping with years of let downs and abandonment, is it the heartbreak from my first boyfriend who left for college and triggered my fear of being abandoned all over again? Is it the image still ingrained in my mind of walking in on the man I loved sleeping with another woman? Is it memories I can't get out of my head of being shamed over and over again for being myself...by someone I loved so much? In the yoga community, especially here on social media platforms it is easy to get caught up in the how we "should" be living. There is something unauthentic about being constantly ecstatic all the time. Today, I feel depressed. So I'm allowing myself to go there. Writing is a way I process these emotions. I'm putting my personal stuff out in the open because maybe you feel like this sometimes too, and that's okay. Nothing is wrong with you. Nothing is wrong with having a big heart and hurting so intensely because that means you have the capacity to love as deep as the deepest ocean.
And that is worth living for ✨
Namaste. The light within me honors the light within you. If we really, truly believe that we are all interconnected...wouldn't you root for another's suffering to end? Wouldn't you care enough to resist the oppression and injustice that is strong within this society, our lineage? Wouldn't you know to your core that no being is less than another no matter your education, economic status, gender, who you love, religion, color of your skin, age, height, size, abilities?
I am a privileged white girl. I grew up knowing love, having enough to eat. I didn't have to fight for an education. I didn't have to explain my sexuality because it was already expected. I never was kicked down or beaten for holding the person I love's hand walking down the street. I was never told to stick to a certain career or way of life because I'm a woman. I was never told I am incapable of greatness because of the color of my skin.
It is time for us to wake up. If you don't think that your are a part of the racism, ageism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, classism and ableism in this country think again. Take a look inside and start to listen to your narratives. Notice when you're quick to judge someone. In order to create any kind of change we need to fix the biases that live within each and every one of us.
Spiritual work is a create place to start resisting oppression. Confront your own shadow. Come into the knowing that all beings are extensions of our own light. Resist the separation. So many need us to wake up right now. If you have the tools, resources and the privilege to do so...the time is now.
I have the privilege of using this platform. If you're reading this, consider it a calling.
A part of me has always wanted to teach classes that stir things up for people. I remember the first time I cried in a yoga class, my life was changed in that one, releasing moment. I wasn't grieving at the time, I was overjoyed. Before that moment, I had never felt so unbelievably connected to who I really was, it was a true coming home for me.
Yoga gives us the opportunity to process, release and discharge energy (emotion). This is what I want to teach in class. As a human being with a million and one different interests, and as a new yoga teacher finding her groove, I have felt my tone, dialogue, and what I choose to focus on in a class switch up all the time. Sometimes I want to choreograph a sequence that is super creative and fun, sometimes I want it to be fast paced, dance like and fluid...sometimes I want to stick to the baptiste-style, or more traditional like ashtanga...other times I want it to be incredibly slow and mindful.
Lately, I have been talking in my classes. Talking a lot and asking my students a ton of questions about their personal relationship to trauma, pain, suffering, forgiveness...you know, the uncomfortable stuff that no one wants to talk about. It has drawn up a lot of tears and my initial ego reaction was to stop immediately. "No one wants to: A. Hear you talk about serious issues because it's bringing them down and you sound like a fool, B. Look that deep inside-yoga is their chance to decompress and get away from their problems, not go into them! And C. What are you trying to do? Stick to what you know and what they like or they'll stop coming."
Ahh the ego. That's the scared little child inside each of us that is terrified of absolutely everything. Unfortunately we need it to survive however, if you can start separating yourself from that voice, your life will change for the better.
In the past week I have made a couple observations as I have crossed into this "new territory" in my classes: 1. It is way easier to practice and to teach when we bypass the emotions. 2. There have been tears. Lots of tears and it makes us uncomfortable.
There is a time and a place for Wild playlists, hip hop yoga, buti and dance classes and crazy hot power hours. Believe me I do them all and they release sweat and energy in the best way. They allow fun and self expression. But when do we cross the line from a yoga practice into a fitness class? When does the internal work begin? Can we start to invite people to get familiar with their "Shadow Self?" Rather than suppress and bypass it? Now, more than ever, is the time to do the inner work. I'm seeing it more and more- friends embracing therapy regularly, treating it just as important as a doctors appointment....because it IS. People seeking yoga, meditation, opportunities to be still and at peace. Holistic healing arts such as bodywork, massage, acupuncture and reiki...people are being called to do their inner work more and more. The ultimate goal of meditation is to be in an enlightened or open state of awareness where the thoughts have become so distant that you just simply "are." Complete presence, bliss and connection to all that is.
Unfortunately chaturangas and green juice doesn't get you there. Actually nothing gets you there, unless you're willing to back-track a bit. So instead of bypassing our thoughts, distractions and suffering and suppressing it with a mantra or whatever...I'm learning that it's actually necessary to go INTO that discomfort, tension and emotion and ask questions. Why do the same thoughts keep coming up? What is my ego terrified of? How has heart break and addiction shown up in my life? What am I grieving? Who do I judge? Where and when do I separate myself from others and let it become me against him, or us and them? It is easier to bypass shadow emotions. As humans we have become experts at suppressing the "ugly" parts of ourselves. I think it's time to recognize that all energies and emotions are beautiful. Because they are part of our humanity...and guess what? We all have them. We. Not me, not you, not us, not them. There is no separation.
The most natural way of releasing emotions that is shunned widely in our culture, is crying. From A very young age, often the first thing we hear even if it is said with love is, "Aw, don't cry!" Unfortunately many of us, particularly our men have been conditioned to associate crying with weakness. Even as grown adults, if we see someone we love start to cry, we don't hold space for them and let them cry it out… We jump to comfort them right away. We hold them, tell them not to cry, switch the subject. Somehow, the most natural phenomenon has become the most unnatural and uncomfortable. My mother raised me to be comfortable with my emotions and crying was never shunned fortunately, but I still feel stress rise inside me when I see students and clients cry. This is an opportunity to normalize emotion and celebrate vulnerability, finally.
So let's commit to being human and allow ourselves to be scared, angry, feel ashamed, guilty, sad...but let us do the inner work necessary to process and release these energies. Find therapy, pray, meditate, practice yoga and then access the highest energy of all. On the other side of pain and suffering is liberation and purpose.
When we are finally able to forgive those who have hurt us, or forgive ourselves for thinking we should have known better, when we are finally able to see that humans are humans and love is love no matter your gender, age, religion, sexual orientation, economic status, political views, or color of your skin...when we are finally able to see beyond the separation that has been drilled into us for lifetimes, we will create great change. A change that is rooted in the lightest vibration of all:
*Post inspired heavily by the lectures and teachings of Seane Corn
When we give ourselves permission to be imperfect, we set ourselves free 🌀
This is me, falling out of handstand. A pose that I have been working on holding for so, so long! The journey leading to the "peak pose" is where the perfection lies. Having fun falling out, getting upside down, trying again and and again and again because you know one day, it will totally happen.
Another peak pose that I'm working on in my life, is loving myself. Loving myself so fully, completely and unconditionally. My friends tell me often that I have a big heart. I fall in love all the time. It's easy to fall in love when you hyper focus on the good in a person, their true self, their soul. The problem for me comes when I don't love myself just as much as loving them. I deserve all the love I have to give. ❤️
What is the "peak pose" in your life right now? Trust that you will get there. You will fall off course, fall out, come back, try again and again and again. You will get there, but try to detach from the outcome. The beauty is in your journey, in your lessons. You are exactly where you are meant to be.
Once upon a time, before the patriarchal society, there were the High Priestesses. Women. Viewed as Goddesses and not only were valued, but were worshiped. The Woman, a direct connection to the moon was known to be sacred. Her cycles; a physical manifestation of the moon cycles, the ocean tides...were thought to be nothing short of magic. This time that she goes through was celebrated every month, not hidden or shamed. The embodiment of Earth Mother, she brings life into the world. Wild, free, unapologetic. The Sanskrit word, "Yoni," represents the womb, vagina, uterus. It literally translates to "sacred space."
How have we drifted so far from this?
The priestesses were wild. Celebrated for their sexuality. Years after this time fear took over in the hearts of men. The women were stoned, burned, shamed for their feminine powers and called witches. Generation after generation suppressed and conditioned to hide their free nature. To feel embarrassed about their bodies. To blend in and fit the mold of a new image. Tame, quiet, obedient, submissive, powerless.
I am starting to feel a shift. Women are waking up. I am waking up. Men are waking up too. To my sisters, you have the right reclaim your power. Connect back to your High Priestess. To my brothers, you have the right to reclaim your power. Which is not misogynistic in nature.. your masculinity is just as divine. We all have the solar and lunar within us. Embrace both the masculine and feminine and come back to balance. Fear is the creator of all suffering. Let's practice coming back to love. Love every inch. Celebrate one another and nurture the Divine Feminine in all beings. We are ALL sacred.
#findbalance #feminism #masculinity#respecteachother #power #yogaeverydamnday#selflove #loveyourself 🔮🌏🙏
This is a beautiful photo. Taken of me, by the talented Kelleidoscope Photography, at sunrise, on the beach down the street. My greatest reservation about posting a photo like this is that someone might see this and think "good for her, but my life doesn't look like that, I don't look like that, Yoga is only for a select group of white, flexible females chanting Namaste." Unfortunately the yoga industry is packed with triggering images. White female, yoga pose, beach, often minimal clothing, often no curves. What is also unfortunate, is that so many yoga teachers feel like they are under such pressure to be this ultra-calm, blissed out, perfect being that does no wrong...that just meditates with no struggle and drinks wheat grass shots for dinner. "Look like me, act like me, and maybe someday you're life will be just as good as mine"..(just make sure you buy this green juice plan, Alo leggings and the $150mat) 🙄🙄 I call Bullshit.
Yoga is accessible to every single person because yoga is a SPIRITUAL practice. One of my favorite teachers Jessamyn Stanley writes about this in her book and explains that if you take a yoga class and they separate the spiritual from the physical...then you are just taking a fitness class and adding the word "Namaste" at the end. You are just working out in yoga pants.
You have a spirit. You have an opportunity to find space in your life and look at your shit. We all have it. In my personal experience, I gravitate towards the teachers who aren't afraid to share their struggles because it allows me to accept mine. I don't feel that I have to look, act or be anybody else except who I am.
I love this photo because it looks like I am welcoming the sun. Embracing the light. It took me a really, really long time to see that I deserve it. Years of codependency, comparison, low self worth. Maybe people wouldn't know that by looking at this picture or by viewing my life through social media, but now is a pretty great time to change that. I love who I am: the yogi, the hot mess, the human. Let's stop striving for perfection and start embracing our humanity. If we all were MEANT to be perfect, then we wouldn't be blessed with such beautiful flaws.